Tentative

Worst job interview

2012-01-28T08:05:00.000+08:00

At times when you're at your lowest, being reminded of your strengths and the good in you helps. Really grateful to eechu and eric for those words to turn my world back around again.

May a good weekend begins.

UOB temp job?

2012-01-27T03:15:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh just look at the time now, can't believe i'm doing so much preparations just for a temp job interview, it better be well, though i don't expect it to be sigh.

Immature ranting

2012-01-21T19:59:00.002+08:00

Felt better after a nap, was kinda angsty earlier on at my dad for still not allowing me to drive alone, could remember how he said no in a really disgusted manner over the phone, then brought up the excuse of needing to send the car for maintenance and repair yet when i woke up you're back home taking your afternoon nap. I'll try to be more understanding, but oh wait, there's nothing much to understand. Your car, you win. And maybe you can even consider driving back to bentong alone instead of pushing this responsibility to me, i don't need someone to be nagging beside me every now and then while i drive, especially when they're rhetorical remarks. Another moment when you wish you are financially independent, in this case, to own a car, and having the liberty to drive around without the need to seek your parents' consent, 'cause it's your car. Can't wait for tomorrow's epic three man reunion dinner, can't wait. Alright the immature ranting ends here.

Got this adorable gift today, really love it! Hope you wouldn't dislike mine too much haha, at least try it yeah. Well lesson learnt is that next time if there isn't anything worth getting i shouldn't try too hard hmmmmm.

Missed the rainbow today while napping sigh.

Blister...ouch

2012-01-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

Decided to shoot some hoops today, and ended up having a blister that's of the size of jihao's nipple. 'Cause it has burst i went to cut it, and dumbass me then realized how painful it was to walk on it.

Got some job offers but it's always either one that doesn't provide a good learning experience, or the location is too far, hopefully more calls will come in with better offers. I'm supposed to do something tomorrow morning, but i've forgotten what it is garh.

At least my second toe is shorter than my big toe, so i'm straight. Off to sip some Alizé.

Dulan shit

2012-01-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

Alrite so i'm told that we're going back to malaysia only on the 23rd, and coming back on the 24th evening, for only fucking 2 days. So on the eve it's just gonna be me and my parents having reunion dinner, great. All thanks to my sis who only can make it back on the 23rd, and how she has to collect her passport on the 25th. And i don't understand what dad is thinking at times, post office closes at 8pm can't we travel back in late morning on the 25th? So he went like "what if there are unforeseen traffic? like how uncle got stuck at the checkpoint for 4 hours?" if you've done your maths even if the journey takes 8 hours we will still be able to make it back on time. Well done sis, can't believe you couldn't have planned all these better, and how we had to go thru' shits to help you in applying visa and passport. I know i'm being a little selfish here, but all these shits just kills the mood for CNY.

Phuket was fun, period.

Goodbye itouch

2012-01-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

Only three days since i've sold my itouch and i'm already missing it badly. It's been with me for four years everyday, my only source of entertainment whenever i travel, as well as the convenience it had given me when i needed to check for the final scores of previous night matches right in the morning. Sealed the deal at 180 bucks, not exactly a damn good price, but it's better than to let it depreciate with time. Was thinking about getting itouch 4G, but why not wait for the 5G? Well hopefully apple will release soon, and the new owner will take good care of it just as much as i did.

Got called down to Recruit Express for an interview, it was kinda waste of time as the agent merely asked the same questions she did with me on the phone. Since i can only commit after chinese new year, i've been put on hold, so i'm still unemployed. But i'm glad at their efficiency, getting back to me in the afternoon when i only submitted my resume in the morning.

Sigh besides looking for jobs life's pretty aimless. Having mixed feelings for this coming friday's phuket trip, wanna go but not really excited about it.

#grumpy

Happy new year 2012!

2012-01-03T00:48:00.001+08:00

Hello 2012. New year celebration was a blast, much much better than the previous years, and i can't believe that we've been doing the same shit for consecutively FIVE years. Great thanks to lee kwangyueh for hosting, but not so thankful for booking our return flight at 16 march instead of 16 january so we all have to pay extra 50 bucks each for flight changes.

Just took a glance at the my posts from last year, nothing significant happened in 2011, national service remains senseless to me, a complete waste of 2 years of youthhood when we're in our prime, though i'm glad that it's over, ORD isn't really much of a big deal. Family, friends, they have always been there, but love has always been so farfetched. If there's one thing i'll look back at for 2011, it's probably my grandpa's death. I must admit that i haven't been really that close to him, so as much as i want to remember, i can feel that he's gradually fading to the back of my mind.

Other than getting my driving license, i realized that 2011 is pretty much the same as 2010, with much lesser tears, and i haven't been extremely happy or sad, so i would say 2011 was rather smooth. Haven't made my resolutions this year, but guess i'll take away one that i've always made for the past years this time round, no vulgarities is really hard hahaha.

Well anyway happy new year everyone! May 2012 be a blast to all you up there (:

License!

2011-12-22T13:47:00.002+08:00

Yay after waiting for exactly a month, it's finally here (:

Driving to malaysia

2011-12-20T16:31:00.000+08:00

Had a four drive on the north-south expressway back to malaysia few days back, worn-out but thrilling! Really hope that dad would let me drive alone soon.

Just ate one large ji pa from shilin, going to sleep now.

Post-ORD

2011-12-16T11:12:00.001+08:00

Post-ORD has been awesome, let's do some recap. Collected my IC on the 5th, treated to the people from GSAB HQ, HR and system office to pizzas, bid my farewells, got a ride home from my understudy when it's only 2pm LOL. Alright and then it's preparation for the hongkong & macau trip, flew back to malaysia on the 6th before flying off again to hongkong on the 7th, then flew back from macau on 11th, stayed awhile in KL and took another flight back to singapore on the 13th. Wanted to buy alcohol at the duty free shop but flights from malaysia would not get to enjoy the duty free benefit, damn -.- Okay just glad to be home, had been looking forward to riding the plane but considering the frequency of flights i took recently i'm kinda sick of it hahaha, well there's still another ride next month! Oh and i accepted another tuition job, really grateful for these lobangs dropping from the sky. Will be driving off to malaysia tomorrow, and coming back on the 19th, hopefully traffic will be smooth. Anyway here's some pictures...

Taken in macau, 15 of us, making up one tour group!

Grandma <3 at hongkong disneyland.

Enjoying the 土产 that i bought from macau, nomnomnomnomnom.

Fly

2011-12-06T17:33:00.000+08:00

At my aunt's place right now, malaysia. Touched down at LCCT a few hours back, and will be flying off again to hongkong tomorrow woohoo! Flying here and there so exciting.

You are the apple of my eye

2011-12-04T20:24:00.000+08:00

Being the most talked about movie lately i kinda expected a little more, but nevertheless a great show (:

ORD quiz

2011-12-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

Just wasted a shit load of time doing the ORD quiz. I've finally completed mustering of documents for this year, as well some miscellaneous stuffs here and there today. There will always be unfinished work at registry, at least there isn't any outstanding shits uncleared by my last working day.

Such a pity that drew and astro are out of the x factor, two of the most promising stars on the show. I just hope melanie doesn't win the competition, she definitely can sing but there are already so many singers with a big voice out there that's similar to hers. Just look at how ratings of american idol has fallen with each successive season, like how most artistes in the music industry today fade away after a one-hit wonder and failing to build on that success.

Gonna miss you drew.

sunnychoi

2011-11-30T23:53:00.003+08:00

So inspired by sunny choi, hopefully someday i'll be able to interpret songs like the way she does, with immense individuality and feelings. Have been feeling unsatisfied about playing the piano lately, with the utility of the same few variations for the songs i play such that it gets boring. Through her music i find more variations playable with the chords, and whichever more appropriate for the melody. And she made me believe songs that would sound dull on the piano can actually be soothing music. It's the kinda magic that makes you wanna run to the piano straight away, to try out new things, and work out something that you've never done before. Do check out the medleys she does, it's truly awesome piecing so many hits into one.

Shared this before, but this is still my favourite from her.

PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!

2011-11-23T23:18:00.001+08:00

Yay passed my driving test, despite having to drive in the rain for the first time -.- okay probably a blessing in disguise, i didn't have to do the ramp and slope obstacle. Just got to drive my dad's car, with my dad of course, out for dinner. Got to experience driving on the expressway and it's pretty scary for the first time, especially when it comes to changing lanes :\ okay there's always a first, and hopefully it'll get better.

I'm just glad i only spent about 800 plus to get my license, not like someone who spent exactly $1975 (WTF!?). Hmmmm taking auto and private is really a good deal after all.

Blood test :\

2011-11-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

I took a blood test today, had an influenza vaccination jab, and didn't cry at all. I feel like a real man.

I don't like to go to hospital

2011-11-15T22:05:00.001+08:00

Other than visiting patients at the wards, i detest going to the hospital.

No ball week again...

2011-11-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

No basketball session for this week again sigh. Well anyway 4 more working days left! Finally had my own ORD function today after being involved for countless functions but only as a helper. The guest speaker was great, so was the food, but was disappointed to only eat 2 cream puffs zzz. Credits to jeremy for organizing everything, but don't always look so stern yeah? Like the whole world owes you something...

Anyway i'm totally hooked onto Drew Ryniewicz's rendition of Just A Dream, rooting for her to win x factor man.

Hit the kerb, oh oh oh!

2011-11-06T18:45:00.001+08:00

Garh i'm sick, for as good as a whole freaking week! Started out with sore throat then feeling feverish but i don't have a fever (bleah am i making any sense). Muscleache all over, feeling really weak, purely surviving on panadols, and when the effect of panadol wears off all the shit comes back again, so another 2 panadols zzz, i'm sounding like a drug-addict. Driving lesson was horrible today, mount the kerb like free -.- not sure if it's because i haven't driven for a long time, or i just couldn't relax myself and concentrate, either way i'm feeling kinda scared for my coming practical test.

It's been 9 hours since my last dosage of panadol, and i'm feeling alright i guess, maybe it's in the mind, but please make all these shits go away shoo shoo...

A day filled with rilakkumas and caramel corns!

2011-11-01T23:18:00.003+08:00

Took my marksman off today to get out of the office. Had lunch with martin at NUS, and the dumpling noodle at arts canteen seriously sucked, but avocado milkshake was nice. Headed to LT20 to look for yisan for awhile, before meeting up with lifern for dinner at Marché (YES AGAIN!). Got to try the black forest ham crêpe which i didn't during the previous visit, and of course the rosti was a must! Went to daiso and found this...

...and immediately bought 3 at one shot, really glad they're selling caramel corn again! Not sure if the orange one was the one i use to buy, 'cause apparently this is maple honey flavoured, and the other 2 are like totally new flavours to me, sweet potato and some almond thingy hmmmmm, had a lousy japanese translator so couldn't comprehend what was written on the packaging, but either way nom nom nom. Ended the day with a mocha frappé treat at mccafe (:

It's been a really great day, with great food and great companion, and many many rilakkumas, but would have been better if i hadn't receive any call from the office -.-

Marksman

2011-10-30T23:03:00.001+08:00

Finally it's mine.

Burned out

2011-10-24T17:00:00.001+08:00

Almost everyday i wake up to fight my inner demons, from simply getting out of my bed to getting to work. I've always won, but succumbed today. Got to know some disappointing news last week regarding my COS, i didn't get both outstanding gradings for my performance and conduct, the former was one grade lower, just isn't what i expected, and i asked myself what happened. Guanneng and i are ord-ing at the same period, so it was told that there can't be two people with perfect gradings coming from the same office at the same time, which is really bullshit. Well he got it, but the least i felt was that i deserved it as well. I mean on paper there's no reason why i shouldn't be getting those grades, he's gonna ord as a recruit, while i'm a corporal, i've to take all the shits like IPPT and range while he only has to worry about office work. Maybe he's our boss' PA, so he gets the recognition that i don't. Then the next thing i asked myself was, did i do enough? I got an answer straightaway, i gave my 110% (almost) everyday to registry, and even going the extra miles out of my expertise, just whatever it takes to ensure things are always running smoothly. Anyway this is nothing personal against guanneng, and i ain't trying to justify that whatever i've done today is right, there's just no point in me to push that hard anymore.

And maybe after all i don't deserve the perfect gradings, imagine that.

Fullerton Suite

2011-10-24T00:08:00.001+08:00

Enjoying chocolate milk with cornflakes cereal, using facebook, and trying to pretend that whatever happened in the past few hours, didn't happen at all.

Scott's birthday party was totally awesome, two fullerton suites booked at the fullerton hotel, located on the highest (8th) floor, complemented with a magnificent view of the esplandae and MBS. Oh and there's plenty of hard liquors, took a few shots and some mix, got pretty high on that night. So besides alcohol, there were the customized M&M that has scott's face printed on it, small fruit tarts that came at $2 per piece, chocolate eclairs, ham & sausages, chips, live band, great companion, just chillax to the max. Oh and of course some really weird kisses that i hope to erase from my mind garhh -.- Got to jam abit with chuanrui's band, just the way you are! A really great song to perform. Cheney and i had the honour to lead in the singing of the birthday song hahaha, kinda screwed up though. And lastly big thank you to DAMIEN WONG from MSB for the ride home!

Can't wait to get my license and roam the street...

Rilakkuma stalker

2011-10-12T22:04:00.003+08:00

Alright so recently i changed my name on facebook, to Rilakkuma Lamington, partly inspired by Scott, and there's this funny guy named Korilakkuma Lambpy wanting to add me as friend on facebook, how weird huh. So i looked up his profile, and thought he had some fetish for rilakkuma!? Most of his friends either have rilakkuma in their names, or appear in the profile picture, no way i'm gonna accept this crazy shit.

And i didn't change my name to attract attention fyi, you should know me better.

I'm a bobo

2011-10-11T12:04:00.001+08:00

Didn't get my marksman for ATP and it made me think how weak i am. Just 16 shots in the day and i already felt like dying, hands trembling, sweaty palms, i was probably never the person to shoot arms. Day-shoot was just shit for me, and i screwed up the night-shoot with my hastiness when i'm really confident. As much as i want people to look up to me, there is always greater disappointment when you failed to live up to people's expectation. So at the end of the day i didn't get the badge, the money, only to walk home with utmost disappointment. And the only consolation is that i don't have to go camp today, but will my understudy be fine without me for 2 days?

All time low

2011-10-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

It's been a bad week so far, my understudy hasn't been meeting my expectations (he probably never will), mistook ALD as AMD and ended up at MINDEF instead of PLAB for urgent dispatch, but still went to PLAB, and also having to put up with another crazy menopaused bitch. Oh and on the way in to PLAB (the place is freaking huge), i gave up walking and decided to hitch a ride, so i hopped onto a suzuki swift, and began to bitch about that bitch to the driver whom i thought was a NSF, but turned out to be a DSTA staff bleah, hopefully he ain't saying anything.

Should have taken up the free offer to go for tomorrow's All Time Low concert...

FTT Pass!

2011-09-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

I've passed my FTT and who cares if i didn't get full marks, either way it's still one step closer to my license! Anyway besides a good buffet lunch at sakura, cohesion today was kinda disappointing. The rain dampened our spirit for the fort canning park tour, and the movie in the afternoon was utterly boring -- I don't know how she does it. Either of the alternative choices would have been much better, Jackie Chan's 1911 and Friend With Benefits featuring JT and Mila Kunis. Headed over to st.games after cohesion with yichin, gerald and andrew to play rock band for a good 2 hours, though i felt it was kinda expensive to be paying 7 bucks per hour.

Can't wait for october to be over, with 2 sentry duties, ATP, and possible water point duties!? And there's also the imminent GCE 'O' and 'A' Levels, so i'm kinda stressed out on devising a plan that will provide them with the best possible form of help in such short notice. I could just show up a few hours every week and take the money, but i'm surprised at myself on how committed i've been all these while, because i guess their results matter to me, and it gives me unnecessary pressure. Just 4 more weeks. Oh and great thanks to yichin now that i own the coolest starbucks card, not that disgusting one i picked up after MAF'11 besides coronation plaza.

Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars, drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are...

Goodbye september.

One Tree Hill S06E13

2011-09-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

People have to cry out all the tears to make room for a heart full of smiles.

One Tree Hill Season 6 Episode 13.

-

2011-09-24T20:45:00.002+08:00

Crazy angsty menopaused bitches everywhere.

One Tree Hill 6x11

2011-09-19T21:46:00.002+08:00

Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never be broken. But if there's no breaking then there's no healing, and if there's no healing then there's no learning. And if there's no learning then there's no struggle. But the struggle is a part of life. So must all hearts be broken?

Dreams and regrets

2011-09-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

Watching one tree hill made me think back about the dreams that i had, as well as the regrets that came along. These dreams take me back to my college days, and the 2 years easily could've been the most important, or significant years of my life. And now those dreams, they have just drifted so far away, and possibly no longer within reach.

MAF'11

2011-09-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Pvsp and maf last saturday, something i've looked forward to for the week. Pvsp didn't turn out to be what we expected, nevertheless we had fun, thanks to lifern and shiqi for completing the team! (And i hope you made your $12 worth elefern hahaha). Class attendance for maf seems to be lesser (i think?), mrs toh wouldn't be around anymore next year, wonder how many more years to go we'll gather as a class to attend maf. Same old songs, same old dance, and dance partner haha. Hanged around at starbucks for post-maf, and which is where i got the ugliest starbucks card ever. I would gladly trade with anyone's starbucks card otherwise i'd get a new card.

Jamming session on sunday with cheney's band, did covers of animal by neon tree, and some paramore hits, i'm not sure if i did much with the keyboard, but at least this is going somewhere, beats years of playing the piano at home alone, and hopefully i'll learn more about music and myself.

And here we go again, the start of a new week...

joeytanshouldeatshitandgoanddie

2011-09-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

I expected this week to be a good week, but towards the end of the day so many shits just happen, one leads to the another, and i got into a horrible state of mind so more shits piled up. One would have made me lost it if i wasn't rushing for time. Mind your own business and don't mess with mine, if you have an issue with me then look me in the eyes and say it. By the way if you ever do request help from people around you please be more appreciative 'cause we don't fucking owe you anything, and do know what your status is in the office you disgusting gay fuck recruit. I've been thankful for having most of the people in my branch, but it only takes one or two fuckers to make the office an ugly place.

Jamming session with chuanrui and cheney didn't go anywhere, but it was pretty to chill out after all the intensity, just that i only managed to reach home around 11.30pm.

Good News For People Who Love Bad News

2011-09-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, we're we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died. Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it.

Manchester 8 - 2 Arsenal

2011-08-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

Last night was totally crazy, like an adrenaline rush and till now i'm still feeling it. Annihilating arsenal 8 - 2, that's the best answer to manchester city's 5 - 1 win over tottenham hotspurs. Every minute of the game is just as exciting, and man united played so well that as a fan you'd known the goals would just keep coming. It was an almost perfect game, if not for the 2 goals conceded. Wasn't a pleasant experience the last time me mark eechu and jason gathered to watch man united play, it was the champions league final last season, but last night was definitely hell of a night to remember (:

And gosh my arm is aching from squash from this afternoon...

-

2011-08-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

Busy busy week, and i'm talking about army wow -.- having audit on coming monday and we're all doing some last minute shits, thanks to some fuckshit who couldn't do his job well. He played it cool by saying he ain't stressed about the audit, when actually he should be otherwise we wouldn't have OT-ed till 930pm to clean up your mess. Alright i'll stop with the ranting, can't wait for december to come so i won't have to see you face again, and hopefully for good.

Nice catching up with kaiqing, benjamin and yiming at his house, alcohol and poker till 4am and finally able to sleep at 5 plus in the morning 'cause yiming was playing club music as our lullaby. Turned up at 8 to head for basketball session at ccab, and back home in the afternoon to nap and here i am. Having two tuition sessions tomorrow, and before i know it it'll be monday, well at least i have a schedule, it's better to pass time with things to do than finding ways to kill time.

Off for dinner now...

First Lesson

2011-08-15T22:54:00.001+08:00

Driving is fun. Period.

Enchanted

2011-08-09T21:16:00.001+08:00

At the end of all our conversations i always hope to take everything back, and have a second chance to add in things that i should have said, or some better choice of words that could have been used to make everything better, or to simply say a little more, just wanna make all those seconds count, and moments perfect.

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew I was enchanted to meet you...

RIP Grandpa

2011-08-06T18:14:00.000+08:00

Was away at malaysia for a few days to attend grandpa's funeral and just got back this afternoon. Feeling really lethargic from attending the wake, all the mourning, and the car journey to and fro. We're kinda mentally prepared for it, as grandpa was already suffering from some late stage cancer, and he refused to go for chemotherapy, probably he felt that it was too painful to fight on, or it would be too costly for his children to afford, either way we respected his decision. I attended 2 funerals when i was younger, both my great grandparents', but i was probably too young to remember anything. So at grandpa's wake i got to know more things, the procedures, rituals, and a little more about death. It was heartening to see him lying peacefully in the coffin, yet doleful at the same time to know that those eyes would never open to you again. During these days i reminisced the times i had with grandpa, though there weren't much, they were mostly good memories, but i wish there could've been more. So with his departure i wonder how things would be in future with the relatives on my mom's side, will we still have a reason to gather together as one, or will we all slowly grow apart from each other?

Imma gonna miss you much grandpa, do rest in peace.

Balance

2011-07-20T21:16:00.001+08:00

Everyday's so busy at work, especially with daryl not around this week. Getting the same pay as everyone else, many atimes i ponder to myself on why bother working so hard? I feel stressed out when i go the extra mile, but i don't feel good about myself when i don't, such ambivalence garh, can't believe i actually care about what i'm doing in NS. Well whatever it is, this routine will only carry on for about 4 months. Glad that i volunteered to help out at woodlands garden school tomorrow, work's gonna pile up when i get back on friday though, but i think i'll work better with a clearer mind by getting out of the office tomorrow.

Oh wait work aside, i still gotta give tuition. When i have much free time back then i wished there are things i could keep myself occupied, and when i'm packed i hope to call for timeouts. I guess it's all about finding the balance, as well as self-contentment.

People comes and go

2011-07-18T20:30:00.002+08:00

People always come and go. Looping onerepublic on my itunes.

Say (all i need)

Being alone is always harder

2011-07-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

Why are relationships always so hard?
Because being alone is much harder.

Corporal!

2011-07-03T23:27:00.001+08:00

Lazy lazy lazy, to update my blog. SA(Ammo) course has ended, kinda sad that i'm unable to stay in SOA thanks to commander, but my eventual posting is one of the better ones so ain't too bad to feel about, and who knows i may even be able to stay back in HR all the way till ORD, really grateful for my superiors who have been putting in good words for me in aid of my posting. Miss my course-mates much, especially bryan, greg, airell, samuel, ferdinand, sasikumar, jingwei etc, thanks for turning the utterly boring course to something enjoyable. Whether it's slacking in the guard room during area cleaning, rushing to the theatrette to get the side seats to sleep during lectures, mutual sabotages, cheating during our assessments, post-camp soccer session, breakfast at KAP, though it's only a short span of three weeks, they're great times spent with y'all, hopefully y'all will still enjoy lives in your new postings.

My birthday was awesome, got some really great presents, as well as many many well wishes, and how events actually fall near the date, the luxury of time has been way more than a NSF can ask for. Thanks everyone once again, going thru' the list of people would be too long, but you know who you are (:

Oh and i'm finally a CPL now, never been happier with a silver for IPPT, even had to run in the rain for 2.4km, well at least it wasn't cancelled or my promotion would have to be postponed :\ Ran like dog, even vomited towards the end, but okay it's over. Surprised that i'm still able to jump that far, it was 260 to be exact, but anything beyond 250 would be recorded as 250, electronic system IPPT haha, ELISS they call it. It's more convenient, but with flaws as well, like how people can cheat the system easily.

Rooting for nadal to win wimbledon final...

I wanna be a fisherman

2011-06-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

The battery of my itouch is still being drained unknowingly though i've deleted coin dozer sigh. Just reached home after playing basketball at CCAB and dinner with edward, actually i've been heading there quite often this month, quite a good feeling to sweat it out after camp. I could feel my game improving, shooting, ball control, confidence, hopefully it'll be enough for my upcoming competition on 2nd July.

Edward said something really funny today, i was asking him about his future if he'll take over his father's company, and he went "No, i just wanna be a fisherman, stay by the beach, surf whenever i want, and if i'm hungry i'll just dive in to the sea to hunt for fish, lobsters etc." And of course being his usual, with his monotonous deep voice, lol...

Cool stuff!

2027 coins

2011-06-13T20:40:00.000+08:00

Finally deleted coin dozer from my itouch, totally battery-draining man, thanks to the stupid coin regeneration thingy. Stopped at 2027 coins, all full-tier except for the ring, which i need 4 red rings but they never seem to come, so i'm giving up.

Bought caramel corn today, so i'm happy.

Household chores

2011-06-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

The house is really clean now, 'cause i did some sweeping, mopping (the first), and tidying up after 3 weeks of leaving the house as it is. Cleaned up my tortoise's home and watered the plants as well, and i know they're simple chores, but i'm proud of myself okay? I believe pop and mom would and should feel the same way as i do, now i just gotta wait for them to be back.

Still alive.

2011-05-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

Into the third week of home alone, i'm still kicking but my expenses have been kinda high. Eating out three meals a day makes me miss home-cooking, and i've been feeling really unhealthy about myself. Had diarrhea and vomited last week, till now my stomach ain't feeling that good, appetite is weak, and i feel sick when i see rice. I'm only at borderline 60, sigh lost weight again, little by little, hopefully it'll stay above 60. Anyway recently i had this dream which is so surreal, with so many bizarre things, some which i wished were real, and some just a nightmare to forget.

IPPT got cancelled again, next one is on 9 june which is only tentative, might even have to attach out to other camps to take it, and by then i'd be on course, not even sure if i'll be allowed to take it.

Matt cardle is such an inspiration.

Dr. Phoon

2011-05-17T20:36:00.001+08:00

Pop and mom took some time off to visit the states, mainly for holiday, as well as to live and witness the day where my sis would be bestowed with the name doctor, first ever in the family tree, really really proud of her. If anyone is to ask if i'll follow her path, studying for almost a third of your life, i can't do it man. It's been three years since she left for the states to pursue her doctorate, and we do keep in touch every now and then, but i gotta admit we were never as close as how siblings should be, well still, really wish you would come home, soon.

Anyway it's gonna be three weeks before my parents would be back, i won't fear solitude, but i'll enjoy the freedom.

Transient happiness

2011-05-12T19:03:00.000+08:00

Of all the days that were burning hot, it had to rain on tuesday morning. I was in the midst of taking my IPPT, on track for silver, and then came the rain, and everything had to be postponed. So now i gotta wait till the 26th, which means i have to discipline myself till then, diet, exercise, keeping fit bleah.

Anyway i'm glad that i finally got an understudy, and is a pretty capable one so i can leave the branch at ease. Imparting the knowledge that i know to him made me reminisce a year ago when i first got into the branch and was still learning the ropes from my upperstudy. Haha, how time flies...

I'm beginning to appreciate the bits of transient happiness every now and then...

IPPT

2011-05-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

Live run used to be enjoyable but today was just totally draining for me. Ever since DY left there's no one to run with, and being in a utterly discouraging environment where everyone's unfit for running i'm only more tempted to laze around with them. Yeah, so it's been really long since i put on my running shoes. As i'm PES B now i gotta take IPPT, and it's coming tuesday. I can totally forget about gold, so the least to fight for is silver, nothing less, money and pride at stake. I'm looking forward to my post out date surprisingly, probably to me camp 2 would be a better place.

Got pangseh-ed yet again, swapped my duty for nothing. ****

Wallet lost

2011-04-29T22:04:00.000+08:00

Can't believe how unlucky i am to actually lose my wallet today during dispatch, and the worse thing is that i'm unable to recall where i lost it. I called up the places i've been, tracked back my footsteps, and used up countless brain cells to try recalling where i've last seen my wallet, but they're futile. Think in total i lost about $175, including ringgits (yeah and why do i even have ringgits in there zzz), so stupid of me for not clearing my wallet frequently. The only consolation is that my 11B and ez-link cards are not in the wallet when i lose it, so they're still with me, but other than that...garh.

What have i done to deserve this!?

...

2011-04-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

Life is so bland, and aimless, that it makes me really, really sad.

Lies

2011-04-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

Met this really weird uncle when having dinner one day, i placed my bag down on the seat, and he was just at the table beside me, so we had this convo, in chinese...

uncle: boy are you in ns or ncc?
me: ns
uncle: what's your vocation?
me: clerk
uncle: wah good life, luckily you're not a combat engineer, must chiong alot
me: orh

I went to buy my food after that, and when i came back he asked the same things again. When i told him he had asked me before he said he had forgotten, and from there he add on some stupid questions like how much was my meal zzz. Of all the things he actually asked something that kinda reflects my reality, probably in a couple of months time.

Sigh i'm really sick of all these lies that i have to keep making, not doing my conscious any good.

No berms -.-

2011-04-11T00:11:00.001+08:00

Saturday was plain stupid, should have heeded yogi's advice from the start, "why don't we skip the parade?" We were kinda reluctant, but somehow we still made our way to boon lay, boarded the bus, and arrived outside OCS, but i was denied entry by this cadet 'cause i was wearing berms. Tried the longer way through singapore discovery centre, stopped by another duty personnel. Actually i didn't intend to go for the commissioning parade, but before i left the house i thought i probably might so i kinda dress a little, and also i should have just taken mark's over-sized jeans. Well so in the end, no witnessing of eechu donning his new rank, no photos taken with eechu as well, even caused yogi to miss the parade to keep me company as we took the bus back to jurong point, i'm really sorry guys, especially towards eechu, missed your big day.

Well anyway the day wasn't totally bad 'cause i got to see my love twice (:

Night Cycling

2011-04-03T01:35:00.002+08:00

Darren weisheng jonyeo and i decided to try something different so we went on night cycling yesterday, rented bikes from east coast park for 12 bucks, and we're off! 10pm, from ECP to geylang to bugis to rochor to cityhall to CBD to outram to vivocity to alexander road to henderson bridge (LED lights were off from 12am to 5am so we didn't go up) to NUS to pasir panjang to clementi road to king albert park to bukit timah road to scott road to orchard road back to cityhall then to nicoll highway to mountbatten road and finally back to ecp at 7am. Took countless bus-stop breaks 'cause of darren, and along the way we stopped by for great food, frog porridge, mango sago pomelo beancurd, milk tea, bak kut teh, and last stop at ecp for mcdonald's breakfast. It was like bike hike in miniature (or was the route longer!?), just that i didn't have to cycle half the journey with a punctured front tyre. The toughest route was actually clementi road, with so many unexpected uphills, and downhills of course, and how we had to keep stopping to wait for darren haha. Had a couple of falls as well, thanks to jonyeo for his stupid suggestion to take the side pavement of nicoll highway, which was kinda uneven, so jonyeo had his fall first, which made me laugh and lose balance then i have my share of pain as well -.- And there's this water pipe right at the end of the downhill, if you just go loose and let momentum take you without braking you're most probably gonna fly off. Then at MBS where there's this drain that's kinda wide but due to the lightings it looked as if it's covered, so i cylced right into it, with my bike falling on my ankle zzz. All this wouldn't have happened if we did not follow jonyeo. Oh and there was the cycling along AYE expressway, probably the craziest shit we did for the night, cycling along the road shoulder with cars passing us by at almost 100km/h. And finally i got to experience the long stretch of downslope behind NUS, with intact tyres (:

Sunday duty spoils the weekend mood garh.

Tohato Caramel Corn

2011-03-29T00:24:00.004+08:00

Caramel, caramel, caramel corn! Okay i've this really crazy addiction over caramel corns from tohato, they are, or were, available in daiso but now daiso no longer sells them! Garh, it's really depressing for me, 'cause you don't get to find it in normal supermarkets, okay maybe yes for Market Place, but they're sold at $2.90 (and according to adriel some outlets sell 'em at $4.30). Sigh, it's only two bucks at daiso. Actually they do sell but it comes in a new packaging, contained in a cup like jagabee, just that you're paying the same price for about 3 times lesser the amount of caramel corns. Well anyway...

Really cool packaging, coming with so many different flavours!

And omg, rilakkuma packaging!!!

This is my favourite (:

And to those who have been oblivious to good food, this is how caramel corns look like...they're not cereal fyi.

Alright i know this post is super homosexual so i'll end here. Bleah craving for a packet now...

The Social Network

2011-03-27T01:30:00.002+08:00

Missed it in the cinema, but just downloaded it through torrent, plugged it up in my hard drive and to the TV, and watched it. Pretty cool huh, BitTorrent is a peer-to-peer file sharing protocol used for distributing large amounts of data and it's estimated to account for roughly 27% to 55% of all Internet traffic. Oh and i forgot to mention the title of the movie, it's The Social Network, talks about the founding of the social phenomenon, Facebook. Behind these great creations i wonder how did the idea come to them initially, Bram Cohen and Mark Zuckerberg. They're (okay i guess it's only mark) really a source of inspiration to me, to become somebody eventually, like a world-beater, well bleah but i know it would only happen in my dreams. While i'm pathetically serving the nation, they're already achieving something at my age. Though they're school drop-outs (not as if they're forced to but they choose to), but all it took was a spark of genius. Sigh and poor singaporeans like us have to study like dogs, get a degree, join the society, compete in the rat race, doing routine works everyday but eventually how many of us can actually become like them? Probably one or two in every batch of graduates? Maybe even none. Everyone of us has the power to redefine our lives, but to what extent are we capable of?

No SCE please

2011-03-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

May everything turns out fine, i really don't want to step out of my comfort zone, and to adapt into a new environment again.

Slump

2011-03-15T00:17:00.001+08:00

Dropped by NUS and NTU open house over the weekend, didn't really gain much insights, but more or less i should be sticking with my choice. I guess i took the initiatives to head down for these open house to re-affirm my choice. Kinda lazy to make any amendments, the whole application process is so troublesome that i don't wanna go through again. From the release of A levels results till now i've yet to feel good about myself. This batch was probably better than last year? Okay that's from what i see, everyone around me is either straight As or just a grade away from perfection. My cousin's results are better than mine, and for the few weeks it was the main talk within my family. Dad kept giving inputs to him, and over time it just gets repetitive such that it becomes irritating. And there's those people who kept saying "aiya hwachong students can get scholarship very easily one!". Coming from a reputated school makes you feel proud to be part of the prestige, but it comes with greater expectations whether it's from one's self or others. Okay basically the whole post-release of the results is a rather shit period for me, with all the unnecessary stress accumulating on me. And if it wasn't for stupid NS i wouldn't have to waste 2 precious years of my youth, and also having 2 years to get over my results before starting everything afresh, wavering my mind about what course to join in university, they're all so mind-fucking.

And dad's still talking. Think i've hit the slump again...

151

2011-03-08T20:37:00.001+08:00

151 doesn't take you anywhere near home...

爱笑的眼睛

2011-02-28T21:12:00.001+08:00

爱笑的眼睛 has been on loop in my playlist since i downloaded yesterday. Initially I got to listen to JJ's version, then i came to realize that most of his songs in his new albums he actually re-sang his previously composed songs, so it led me to the original singer of the song, and i was like, wow, vivian hsu! She's got a really sweet voice which i found it really befitting for the song, and with such a pretty face plus a hot figure, i'm totally in love (:

To say i'm not sad at all i'll be lying, it'll always be a scar within me, but i believe eventually i'll calm down, and the scar will get smaller. Kinda like today despite being monday, keeping myself busy and distracted, not thinking of all the complexities in life. Oh, and it didn't rain today...

Fac Dance!

2011-02-26T23:00:00.001+08:00

I've been told to update, which means there are still living beings accessing this place, thanks for the support all these while haha. Oh well, K session was cancelled again 'cause there were no slots available zzz, something that i've looked forward to the whole week is just gone, it's been a bad week and i thought the K session would turn thing around bleah.

Headed back to school yesterday for POP (not passing out parade) to catch the fac dances, and getting into the HC atmosphere. It's nostalgic watching the current J1s taking the central plaza in pride of their faculties, and while the fac dances take improvisations every year, i still felt that the ares rendition for my batch was the best haha, it's subjective. Kinda disappointed that ares didn't win this year, losing out to a bunch of shreks wearing shades. Hated the way they announce the results, no suspense or any build-up at all, didn't even know it was announced actually, until i realized the herd of shreks jumping in joy, and the other faculties making way for them in the central plaza. Saved some girl from the construction workers on the way home, felt like a superman.

Tomorrow's sunday, but what to do sigh. Off to man united's game now...

21 Feb

2011-02-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

My mind's burning with fear, almost about everything, the future, filled with much uncertainties. Gimme directions, with courage and faith to move on. Please...

Sheer brilliance

2011-02-13T12:45:00.000+08:00

Just a little faith in him, and it's sheer brilliance.

Idiotic Uncle

2011-01-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

Right now I just wanna point the middle finger at this uncle whom i saw at coronation today walking out of singapore pools saying "man utd tonight cannot win one lah", and as well as those scientists or researchers who claimed that by 2012 three spaceships will land on earth to attack us. We'll live beyond 2012, I don't wanna die at 21, there's still so many things I wanna do in life.

Great basketball time today in high school, met up with old coach, the B division, and my wonderful teammates.

zzz

2011-01-15T00:24:00.001+08:00

And i just keep sleeping, waiting for something to happen...

Sian

2011-01-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so lazy to do anything, every time i wake up i wish i could sleep abit more, even when lately i've been turning in before 10 (there was once i slept at 8). Sigh no motivation to do anything, especially in work, and so many things ahead to be done but couldn't be done in a short notice, so sian about everything.

Quite a bad start to the new year...

Merry Christmas '10

2010-12-26T22:38:00.001+08:00

Merry (belated) christmas to all! It's a different one with my relatives from malaysia dropping by this year, things are livelier. Eve was half day at work, but still gotta go for dispatch while the others were celebrating in office, unwrapping their presents, and up till now i'm clueless who's my "angel", well glad that yuanqing like the present i got for him. Caught up with my teammates at plaza sing, before heading to universal studio with my relatives for After Hours. Just 5 bucks and we got to have some glimpse of the inside, fireworks at the end made it really worthwhile.

Class outing on the day of christmas, with about a quarter of the class attended, haha still i think it wasn't that bad already, really really really missed everyone. Had lunch over at the glass house, fish & co, then roam around plaza sing again. Big thanks to singtel for providing free photography and printing, part of their advertising campaign i guess? Haha and weekian as well for Gong Cha bubble tea (: Watched a movie that featured nagasawa masami at night with teammates, wasn't that bad unexpectedly, maybe eechu was right for once, or was it edmund? And i was really tempted to stayover with them at the hotel, which eechu got it for free tsktsk, but i can't just leave my relatives behind at home bleah, priority...

And that pretty sums up christmas for this year, oh and i got lots of presents this year! Usually i don't even get anything haha, so here they are, really grateful towards adriel, mabel, chonkah and some unknown sender.

Thought this was quite well taken, thanks yiting for the polaroid shots (:

Anyone who hasn't watched rapunzel wanna watch with me?

Angst

2010-12-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

So angsty, right now. I've been having lots of issues with dad recently, and it's making me dislike my family even more. I don't even wanna think about chinese new year 'cause there are sure to be many disputes between us ahead, this is probably just the beginning.

I've planned my leave alas, but rather unwillingly, really shouldn't have left my leave untouched all the way till the end of the year. For the whole of next week i'll only be going for the eve, and i really don't know what to do for the days i'm on leave. Missed out hell lotta fun last weekend 'cause i was overseas, so it's been about 3 weeks since i last saw my friends, and this is the time where i really need them, right now.

Malaysia

2010-12-17T01:02:00.002+08:00

Imma gonna take a well deserved break to malaysia...ciao!

Conjunctivitis

2010-12-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

Up till now i still don't know what hit me with conjunctivitis, i was thinking about the top shells but i ate only one and it was about 5 hours later that my eyes were swollen. So i thought it could be sake, but if i could drink beer it wouldn't make sense, unless it's different or something. Or a chemical reaction between sake and top shell? Bleah...it was the morning after the clash between man utd and arsenal, watched the match at eugene's house, finally a decent match without sopcast. Still made my way to camp, was thinking of reporting sick at maju, ended up timothy fetched me to A&E at NUH hahaha, and everything took about 30 minutes, if it was maju it would have been few hours i guess. Doc gave me an eye-drop and 2 days of MC, there goes my clean sheet, first in almost seven months. Well anyway really thank you much timothy, utterly grateful.

Back to work tomorrow...

OCT(OOC)

2010-12-06T19:50:00.002+08:00

One more exercise and we can all look forward to joint term, that's probably what i would i say as a cadet, but i'm not, just a private taking orders with no authority. Though it's been over seven months since i ooc-ed, i still look back with regrets and bitterness. By now the infantry cadets already have the jcc and csb badges being sewed onto their number 4, and in a month's time they'll be donning the black bar. The view of the parade square is still lucid in my mind. All the pride and honour, i could have been there to savour. It's been a short and smooth sailing seven months for me, while for them though it's long and arduous, they're leading a meaningful life with purpose in national service, while i'm not. I guess the only consolation i have is probably to tell myself "hey, at least i've made it there!"

I won't deny the jealously in me, mixed with abit of angst. Nevertheless i'm still really happy for you guys, especially edmund, jason, weisheng, sherman, choonlian and yuhui.

Friday rain...

2010-12-02T19:18:00.001+08:00

Let it be a rainy friday please, preferably in the morning.

It's better to be in office

2010-11-23T00:39:00.002+08:00

Cohesion today but wasn't as good as i expected to be, in fact more of a gloomy one. Touring marina barrage and understanding facts about singapore water made if all felt like a primary school excursion.

Lunch was at jack's place 'cause we didn't have a choice and it's self-funded bleah. I didn't make the right choice for my steak, medium would have been better that medium-well, felt like i was eating pork liver at times :s alright that's still okay my fault there, what's fucked up was how the waiter, who happened to be an ex-nsf from my camp, toppled over my cup of tea which eventually spilled onto my white berms and stained it. Apology was made and he gave me another cup but i rejected it for all appetite was lost tsktsk. The thing that irritates me was how he continued to have brief chats with the officers on the other table and act as if nothing happened just minutes ago. His direct superior was there as well, mingling with the officers, and i so wanted to lodge a complain. Somehow i felt i deserve better? The chair was wet as well so the least you could do was to replace one for me? And my stained berms, at least you could propose some solutions? Garh, well i just told myself "forget it", i don't really expect much from PAD people, not gonna dine there again.

Following which we made our way to the arcade, only to be yelled at by a timezone staff for shooting the ball into another lane. I mean was that necessary? You could have put it in a lighter manner after all we paid for the games. So we exchange stares and i didn't wanna get slashed at so we stop there before things get any more tense.

Then we move on to archery over at some ulu community centre, taking turns to shoot arrows in a small area of about 20 by 20 metres, it's indoor but not air-conditioned, stuffy and sticky.

Cab back from there and met this freaking weird taxi-driver who couldn't stop shaking his legs and scratching his arms while driving. There were many times he didn't move when the light turned green 'cause he was actually sleeping? That should be the closest answer 'cause after all his eyes were closed -.- and he's barefooted, stepping on the pedals with his feet. Okay not to be mean probably he's having some illness, still it was an unpleasant ride home.

This may sound crazy but aside from the early fallout, maybe working in the office today would have made a brighter day? Well still i'm grateful of DY's effot in planning today's cohesion, hope caizhi and you enjoyed it after all it's the last cohesion you're gonna have with us before you guys move on from army in about 3 weeks time. Got to meet up with chonkah (i know you're reading this) as well, in his usual self. Sigh it's just like my previous posts, full of complains, but i guess that's one of the reasons why i kept this blog, to serve as an avenue to rant when i need to. Alright tomorrow will be a better day, things shouldn't get any worse from here.

Angst

2010-11-19T22:43:00.002+08:00

Dad denied me once again for another chance to travel, first it was hongkong which he claimed that the air ticket was too expensive at this point of time. It was about 500 but accommodation was all provided so even if the tickets may be abit on the higher side the trip on the whole would still be reasonably cheap. Oh whatever, i'm not even asking you to fork out a single fucking cent. Alright then comes bali, phuket and bangkok, all no. Bali was a no go 'cause of volcanoes being active? Like what the fuck not as if the whole island is going down if one explodes. And i can forget about thailand 'cause of the ongoing political disputes happening over there. And then he went on to search the net for those related articles to prove his points, yeah fine but i don't give a fuck about it, if he's keen to not let me go i know it's futile to try convincing him, no point wasting my time and fucking analyze the articles and in the midst finding flaws in them so i can rebut him.

If money isn't the issue, he'll find other shit to fault me, so if volcanoes are present in a country we should never fucking visit it? And for like fucking how many years that dispute has been going on for so we should never go thailand? Whoever is keen to travel in the family he would wanna poke his nose in, like how he discouraged my aunts not to go korea 'cause it was snowing so the weather would be so cold that having a tour there wouldn't be that ideal. Many times i wonder why can't you just fucking mind your own business? Besides travelling he also brought up the issue of me staying over at my friends' house too often, when i only do so for about once a month? It's not as if i'm pestering my friends to let me stay in or simply self-invite myself to their house. All he says is that doing it so "often" only brings about inconvenience for the other family members and all that shit. True to some sense, but i'm pretty sure you would at least seek your parents' consent before actually bringing friends into your house? And if the parents are totally cool about it i don't see why you should fucking bother so much.

There's just, so much so much angst in me right now that i wanna vent it out but i don't know how to, just hope that when i wake up tomorrow he'll be fucking out of the house. Really, fuck you dad.

New pillow!

2010-11-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hopefully with my new pillow, all my sleeping disorders would be washed away! And november is gonna be a short month...

Wishes

2010-11-10T20:57:00.002+08:00

We make wishes because they're not within our capabilities to make them happen.

Sunny Choi (:

2010-10-28T23:21:00.004+08:00

There's a plethora of piano covers for many of the popular hits in the music industry today on youtube, but i'm particularly fascinated by this lady Sunny Choi. She infuses a strong personality into playing, and the covers she does make the songs that have faded by time come alive and fresh again with her unique arrangements. Most of the pianists adopt a "classical" approach to the songs, just playing the melody in a rigid manner and once in awhile adding in some sophisticated chords. As long as it's minimally sound, positive comments would start flooding in. Honestly i'm rather disgusted with many of the over-exaggerated responses and how viewers are so easily impressed. I think Yoonha Hwang is totally over-rated, his covers receive much more hits than Sunny's, but in terms of song interpretation the korean is simply out of her league, IMO. And he calls himself "Piano Man"!? That's alot of ego coming from him, and at the same time it's very f***you-worthy. I won't deny that he's technically gifted, and so are the many pianists out there, but to bring out the feel of the song with only good techniques isn't enough, creativity (which brings about improvisation) and individuality must be supplemented as well. Being able to play the score completely is probably just the beginning. Cliche as it may sound, a song wouldn't come to life if the musician fails to bring out its spirit, in which this case i feel that most of the pianists who attempt at doing song covers failed to do so. Well i've never taken any formal lessons, so i probably shouldn't even be deserving to comment on anything so imma gonna let the music speaks for itself.

Yoonha Hwang's version...

...and Sunny Choi's version. I feel that using the same song for comparison would aid in exemplifying my stand.

And of course, there are also the wannabes that totally butchered the songs.

Loved

2010-10-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

Really thankful to have so many friends showering me with care and love, tzin totally appreciates that (:

And may the hongkong trip be a success...

Calvin Klein One Summer

2010-10-17T21:23:00.002+08:00

All the restaurants at pasir ris park are gone, the pond for fishing or prawning is removed as well, things are no longer as lively as before, even the rental price of bicycles has gone down, two hours for just five bucks. And oh well seems like everyone's leaving already, to either taiwan, america or australia, some for a few weeks, some a few months. Wish i have the opportunity, doesn't matter if it's for leisure or exercise, once in a while just wanna graze the grass on the other end, i've been trapped in this little red dot for too long...

Thanks adriel for this wonderful scent of summer.

And mingchou wears a wig when he goes out what the heck? Instead of just removing and throwing it on the ground i should have just run away with it.

Tsuki no Koibito

2010-10-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

Back to j-drama again, watching Tsuki no Koibito at episode 3 now and lin chi ling is so freaking HOT *sweats

Freehand

2010-10-11T00:08:00.000+08:00

Cycle, cycle, and cycle, from one end of east coast park to the other, then back again, for a good couple of hours. Sea breeze brushing against the face, scenic views, and the many ongoing recreational activities made the ride really relaxing and enjoyable. It's the sense of tranquility that you wish for everyday, one that will rejuvenate you to embrace tomorrow with optimism. Oh and i'm much better at freehand-ing now, can go on a straight road for over 10 seconds haha, probably even longer if i tried, felt that it's really cool to do so when i was young. Bumped into my upper-study daryl tan at the jetty, who was really gay riding a two-men bike with another guy. Okay my thigh muscles are aching so imma gonna peace out.

Green with envy

2010-10-04T00:04:00.001+08:00

How nice it would be to have 5 days in weekend and only 2 weekdays (or weekday days??) in a week, and it feels like i just TGIF-ed yesterday. Glad i make my weekend count, buffet with colleagues, good old times with high school friends and the evergreen ec house. Doing guard duty on a saturday would be the shitest thing ever, i can totally understand you yogi.

Well anyway welcome back infantry officer cadets, congrats to jason and edmund with the badge! To be able to obtain that badge, plus the way how ec made ocs sounds so easy, and the alluring pay these clowns are drawing, gave me a compulsive desire to recourse bleahh. I'm green with envy...

Got freaking emotional again last night, thought that a few months back would be the last but i guess there are some things that ain't easily forgettable, well i've tried though, i'm worried that everything would start setting in again. Lalalalala i'm not gonna turn this into another emo post. Two IDS duties for the coming week, and one is just tomorrow, cheesepie.

Scream

2010-09-30T20:46:00.001+08:00

And it's all here in
Black and white and red
For all the times
Those words were never said

I wanna hit the mics and scream my lungs out.

Berbatov (:

2010-09-20T00:45:00.001+08:00

What a thriller, but ferguson is right actually, man utd could have won by a greater margin, if not for stupid fouls committed by evans and o'shea or if nani's shot hadn't hit the pole, well 3-2 is still a win, three points are all we wanted and needed. Thank you berbatov, 30 million pounds is definitely what you worth, probably more.

Kinda pity someone who had to walk home from coffee shop with a sulky face haha.

Hot and cold

2010-09-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

You're so hot and cold, sometimes i wonder what am i to you, someone to toy around with? Whether it's reality or just illusion, i know i'm just playing with fire. When good things come your way at a time when your life is so bleak it's kinda hard to resist aren't they? And probably 'cause of that i tend to commit myself too easily. Sigh at times it feels so good, yet so wrong...

MAF

2010-09-13T20:09:00.001+08:00

PVP and MAF were just awesome, things went well as expected, we managed to get 3rd for captain's ball, but didn't foresee markus to sprain his ankle before our first game -.- anyway thanks to the team markus, jihao, jason, edmund, eechu, jaime, jillian and some girl whose name i can't recall haha. Got really high at night, humming to the familiar tunes and doing the mass dance, before wrapping the day up with a cup of sogurt.

I really missed those good old JC days...

And to my brothers in brunei, come back in one piece and the badge (:

Screw samsung

2010-08-28T13:11:00.001+08:00

I'm so freaking pissed with samsung phones 'cause i'd always have problems transfering files from the phone to the computer, hopefully dad would let me change phone soon, right now i'm just gonna use it as a messaging phone that's all garh.

Another week has gone by and it's weekend again. Office hours felt shorter than before, probably i've assimilated well enough. I've been really happy with my vocation now, except with some superior who can't stop shooting arrows to me. Well whatever it is i really hope to stay, seeing how guanneng has been called up for bmt-recourse in november made me kinda worried 'cause my medical review is coming up, and there's a high chance that i'll be combat fit. Posting out seems impending, but all i need is just a pes C.

Yesterday was branch's cohesion over at sentosa, played volleyball, captain's ball, frisbee, tried sky ride, luge, sky tower, and a group of us went for party world ktv after the event. This post could have been better illustrated if not for samsung. Well, it was really a great day anyhow. Headed over to bbdc at night for my basic theory test, and i got 48/50! I even double-checked my answers, but i would have passed even if i hadn't checked 'cause i only made one amendments, kinda disappointed that i didn't get full marks though haha. Time for some driving lessons yes.

CLICK FIVE!

2010-08-17T23:01:00.004+08:00

FREAKING LOST MY EZ-LINK CARD AGAIN GARHH. 2nd time liao, must have slipped outta my pocket when i was retrieving my phone sigh, lost about 20 bucks.

Weekend was a blast, found myself playing soccer on saturday morning with choojun, kwangyueh, samuel and sherwin, well sorry team for the losses 'cause i really suck at soccer ): lunch over at burger shack to try some overpriced burger, and then we headed down to play l4d2 for like, 3.5 hours OMG. Rushed for dinner with colleagues at some seafood restaurant in tiong bahru, and ended the day with rock band at zhunwen's house. Owning an apartment with orchard road just a short walk away is simply awesome.

Life story sharing by hongsheng again on a sunday afternoon, won back about 10 bucks from mahjong with some luck, then met up with jieyang for some last minute click five gig over at the The Promontory with vvip pass. The band was awesome live, and i totally love kyle for singing the hits from their first album, but i still miss eric's vocals. It was an hour of quality music, and it would have been cooler if jieyang's camera was working -.- so the picture below was the best we got, taken with my 3.2mp camera phone. Ripped this off jieyang's blog "I swear the bassist smiled and half winked at me. I swear." i know we sound like some crazy girl fans arguing about this, but it was me whom the bassist smiled and half winked at dude. Oh and there were fireworks too, though i think the whole thing was damn gay but i still <3 you bro.

Army is degrading my brain, the content of my posts are just about recapping the events instead of my thoughts, probably suggesting that i haven't been reflecting much and i'm just feeling lackadaisical about my life. Well anyway i received a really creative belated birthday gift today (:

Chicharito!

2010-08-09T23:56:00.001+08:00

Community shield reclaimed! Okay i was expecting it to be a narrow game so i was totally astonished by the scoreline. Hopefully with this impressive results man utd gonna kick-off the campaign with sky-high confidence, don't forget the finishing touches definitely. Paul scholes passed like a god, and I wanted to believe owen was good but he's been disappointing, looks like he ain't gonna have much playing time now that chicharito has moved to old trafford. Anyway thumbs up for the scouting team to actually single out javier hernandez before the world cup.

The singapore flyer and the newly erected marina bay sands make the night view of singapore so balls-shrinking. I think if i were to show my 2nd sis this picture she wouldn't believe it's singapore haha. On tv there would be one that's viewed from the chopper encompassing the skyscrapers in CBD and the esplanade with the fireworks display but couldn't find that picture, well this is good enough. Happy birthday singapore! I'm utterly grateful at where i belong for this is a place we call home but still thank you for wasting 2 years of my life.

I don't buy SC2 doesn't mean i'm giam.

2010-08-02T22:16:00.001+08:00

Alright i did my first IDS duty last friday, covering up for eugene so he could go woot woot in whatever party he's invited, in exchange for 80 bucks *kaching. Basically it was just sleeping in bunk and slacking in guard room staring at 4 televisions with many mini windows, munching away the unlimited night snacks.

Saturday night was hongsheng's birthday surprise, like finally 'cause it was always postponed. Hmmmm actually if it wasn't for his mum probably we wouldn't even care much haha. Okay so we had buffet dinner at kiseki, heeren's basement. Wasn't really impressive and it's kinda overpriced, well but still big thanks to hongsheng's parents. Took a stroll down orchard road and hung out outside the cathay past midnight, with hongsheng telling his life story as usual. Well in any case let's play ball soon bros.

Okay watched hell lot of movies this week as well, and they're mostly fantastic, other than the book of eli which i felt was kinda long and draggy. Oh there's the hollywood version of shutter which sucks big time. Besides those are 500 days of summer, inception, the longest yard, up, hurt locker and bedtime stories.

To all NUS freshmen have fun in school! While the rest of the army boys continue to suck thumb and serve...

No regrets

2010-07-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

I've never had any regrets concerning the decision i made exactly a year ago.

Shots

2010-07-26T00:18:00.002+08:00

Get me some shots, and we ain't done till we're drunk.

Out of shape

2010-07-24T12:35:00.001+08:00

Gotta hit the gray road soon, haven't done live run for nearly 2 weeks. It's been a good food week, even cookhouse food in rifle range camp impressed me for once. Oh and there's carl's jr as well, was desperate to finish up the vouchers which were due yesterday. Just so happen that my malay neighbours won 'em at some lucky draw thingy but carl's jr ain't halal, so they gave it to us, and i'm utterly grateful.

Okay so basically i feel fat now, all the spare tires are coming out, and my arteries are probably choked with fat deposits, it's kinda hard to breathe sometimes. I think i can now understand how it is possible that timothy could upsize till such extent.

Happy ORD darren sam, best wishes for your australia studies. Oh and hello lost season 6.

Bye chaiping!

2010-07-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

Zoom another week past, and before you know it monday is here again bleah. Weekend passed especially fast, probably i was out almost the whole time. Friday night was spent at vivocity's party world ktv, sort of a farewell thing for darren sam's ORD, who's at perth right now having fun in orientation. With the past ORD personnel in the group i felt kinda outta place most of the time, drank more than i sang maybe. Well imma one month old clerk anyway, but i'll tryna get to know everyone better. Ended around 2.30am, so i cabbed to my sis' place to put up for the night.

Family time with my sis and niece on the first half of saturday. Took her to school for ballet, took her home. Got myself a new bag from queensway on the way back. Took a short nap, woke up to a sms from mark regarding an outing at somerset at 5. Got changed, grabbed the overnight subway cookie, and left for the mrt. Went for K again that night with mark, jason and yogi. Got home near midnight, end of saturday. Oh and saturday is the awards presentation day too, fuck it.

Met up with chaiping this week as well, and today was the sending off. Gotta wake up really early since her flight was 9am, missed the first train but still made it on time. Wasn't really a bad ride from yewtee to changi airport with companion, you'll always find yourself reaching the destination faster somehow. So erm, we just took some photos here and there, hang around terminal 3, didn't get to try the slide 'cause it wasn't opened, did some catching up with beloved s78 classmates, and then it was byebye from there. Everyone seems to be so busy lately, it's been really long since we last had an outing. Kaiqing please do something...

Gotta curtail my expenses for this month, 420 bucks is really a pathetic sum of money, peanuts they call it. Alright i'm off to fold my smart 4 and pack for tomorrow.

Au revior chaiping

Viva Espana!

2010-07-12T19:33:00.004+08:00

Spain to lift the trophy, i was right from the start way back at june 11. And this heap of faith i placed on the spaniards made me breakeven, probably a net profit. It's been a good final, but could have been better, maybe it's the final and neither side wanna take the risks. Staying up for the match was worthwhile, thank you andres iniesta, just gotta feeling that spain would have lost it if the match went on to penalties, which wouldn't do spain justice considering how they have been the better team for the 120 minutes.

I don't understand why people are turning to mani the parakeet for world cup tips. The bird may have predicted the 4 semi-finalists correctly, but definitely it's pure luck, it made 2 mistakes since then, and give the bird 100 matches to decide, imma gonna say it'll hit 60% correct at most, it's all the rules of probability. I mean, what do birds know about soccer? It's nothing more than just a source of income or other commercial purposes for mani's owner, and only faggots who are dumbass-ed enough would pay 50 bucks for the bird's prediction. Gimme a SAR-21, i wouldn't hesitate to kill the bird.

Oh well, viva espana (:

PRC service

2010-07-08T22:47:00.002+08:00

Eating out at yewtee always gives me a headache, 'cause with 3 food courts and many other fastfood outlets, it's hard to decide on what to eat. I chose KFC 2 days ago, and probably i would never wanna eat from there again. I waited for quite awhile despite the cashier telling me that it's gonna be 2 minutes, so i got kinda impatient and asked for my zinger, they made me wait for a few minutes more. Eventually i got my burger, but when i double-checked to ensure everything was there, the whipped potato was missing, so i had to get back to the cashier to retrieve it. Yeah the service was really bad, but that's not all. When i got home and began consuming the zinger burger, part of the chicken fillet was not fully cooked, and it tasted like chicken liver. Guess who were the people serving me at the counter and preparing the burger? China f***s.

Well at least spain made it to the final, i'm contented.

To the leader, the pariah, the victim, the messiah, this is war

The remedy.

2010-07-04T23:21:00.004+08:00

At times we think we know everything, but we can know the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in pain -- no matter how smart or accomplished -- they cry, they yearn, they hurt. But instead of looking down on things, they look up, which is where i should have been looking, too. Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love, and a peaceful heart.

Sometimes reading a book makes my heart feels lighter, but there's still a long way to go before i can dispose off this heavy rock in me.

Good and Evil

2010-06-30T01:08:00.003+08:00

The same things in life can be good or evil, depending on what, with free will, we do with them. Speech can bless or curse. Money can save or destroy. Science can heal or kill. Even nature can work for you or against you: fire can warm or burn; water can sustain life or flood it away. So why doesn't God eliminate the negative and accentuate the positive? And the Reb replied "Because, from the beginning, God said, 'I'm gonna put this world into your hands. If I run everything, then that's not you.' So we were created with a piece of divinity inside us, but with this thing called free will, and I think God watches us every day, lovingly, praying we will make the right choices." Took this off from Have a little faith.

Anyway taro turnover tastes horrible when it's been left for hours.

Nothing haunts like the things we don't say.

19th (:

2010-06-24T23:26:00.003+08:00

My 19th wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, 'cause come to think about it i'm already considered lucky to be actually celebrating my birthday outside compared to those in camps. Had lunch over at Marché, got to try the rösti again and it still tastes heavenly! Watched toy story 3 after that, before heading back home for a family dinner plus blowing cake. Oh the movie was really great, definitely one of the best production this year, do check out rottentomatoes and imdb for their imba ratings.

This year is different 'cause i had 2 cakes haha! My upper-study deliberately took my out to pass out some documents and when i came back, surprise surprise! Thank you chonkah really appreciate it (: as well as daryl and daniel for the cake too. Cards and gifts complete the picture, oh not to miss out the squashed mochi :\ And lastly thank you everyone else for your wonderful wishes! (there's more this year haha!)

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be...